Mom

My mom has Alzheimer's and it is HORRIBLE.  Since her birthday in Februrary it has escalated. I have not had a very close relationship with her in my 58+ years, but she is my Mom, and I love her despite all her neurotic faults and crap that she saddled me and my brothers with. Watching her struggle with this -there is actually no word BAD enough to give Alzheimer's-disease has made me love and respect her more.  She has worked hard to keep her dignity throughout the past three years as her mind has slip, slip, slipped away.  How sad it is to sit across the table from her and answer honestly when she asks if she will always be this way? I didn't have the heart to tell her it will get so much worse.  I am torn between wishing it WOULD GET WORSE, then she wouldn't know something is deparately wrong with her, and wishing she would quietly slip away in her sleep and it would be over.  At least she would be at peace.  (my justification??)  I struggle with this and pray about it.  I trust our Lord to know the way.

LL

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