Last night I dreamed about my son, Toney. He has been dead for 5 years.  This dream was not sad, as a lot of previous ones have been.  It was odd.  I cannot remember what led up to the part of the dream that I remember, I know that some of it was tied in with a conversation I had with my daughter Christy about an upcoming trip we might take.  I dreamed that Toney and I were walking down a street, and I was confused by the fact that he was there talking and walking with me, as I knew he had died.  He told me he had never died, but that a mistake had been made and after the memorial his dad didn’t know how to tell everyone that he was still alive, so he just kept quiet about it!! Toney did not look much like himself, since he was quite a bit taller than me in my dream than he would have been in real life, and he was walking, which he couldn’t have done.  He told me that he just didn’t need his wheelchair anymore, he just started walking one day when he noticed he had lost some weight and could stand up.  So he didn’t need the chair.  I remember I turned to look at him and I was amazed by his walking next to me, then he put his arm around my shoulder and we walked down the street.  That’s all I remember.

I Love you, my beautiful Boy. I miss you so much, someday we will walk together. Mom

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Toney and Gil


Toney and Gil, originally uploaded by lal3509.

Thinking a lot Yesterday of Toney. It was the 5th anniversary of this Death on February 5,2001. I miss him so much. He was my youngest child and was a really neat person. He was only 2 months shy of his 30th birthday when he became ill and died suddenly.
Some time I might be able to put into the blog, the story of how Toney died and how it changed my life tremendously.

Published in: on February 7, 2006 at 3:35 am  Leave a Comment